My husband is dealing with several issues and I'm not sure if I am posting.

It's been awhile since getting back onto this site as I it has been busy the past week or so. I'm the primary caregiver for my husband. He has been diagnosed with anxiety, general anxiety, agoraphobia, PTSD, and bipolar II disorder in 2010. As of this year, we'll have been married 23 years, and wasn't diagnosed until then due to lack of money and insurance. So obviously, these disorders were left untreated since he turned 18, and was kicked off his mother's insurance.
Once we finally were on insurance, because we are low income, the competition for resources in a big city ( we live in Seattle), getting the care he needs has been difficult. The help has been limited and the places that we went for professional help are stretched thinly.We even were able to apply and get him on ssi, but due to technicalities, he was qualified as disabled, but not any financial assistance.
Also, he had a therapist who either through a big workload, or inexperience, or other reasons, drop the ball on him. This was clearly evident after the last suicide attempt that he had back in October of 2015. This was the last time he ever saw his therapist. He felt like he was failed by the system back in high school and now again recently. Too many "nurse Ratchets" and the cold shuffling of patients was what he feels. The idea of going to see one, is a trigger now. His last therapist wanted him to go to a place here in Seattle, Harborview, but that was a reminder of a traumatic experience he had in a hospital he attended while in high school. So he stopped seeing her.
Add to the stress, Seattle is going through a major gentrification overhaul, which means we're getting priced out of here and need to relocate. Being here, in a city of 4+ million people, has made things worse. In the almost seven years we've lived here, he has had multiple mental and emotional meltdowns, the PTSD and panic attacks are escalating, and has had at least two suicide attempts. He hasn't had any of these symptoms to this extreme until we moved here to Seattle.
In the 20+ years we've been been married, we've tried just about everything. Her been researching on YouTube, studying Buddhist meditation, weaned himself off of medication that was negatively affecting him, changing his diet, trying to get out for walks. Although the neighborhood we're in is getting so congested, getting out for walks are starting to have a negative impact on him.
I'm at a loss, he's having suicidal ideation and losing the will to live, especially after battling this for so many years and feeling as though he has nothing to show for it. I can't call for help because he has PTSD with therapists, officers, and the system in general. He's had such bad experiences with the system that is supposed to help, that he can't get the help. Add to the fact we're in a city that is too big for us.

It's been awhile since getting back onto this site as I it has been busy the past week or so. I'm the primary caregiver for my husband. He has been diagnosed with anxiety, general anxiety, agoraphobia, PTSD, and bipolar II disorder in 2010. As of this year, we'll have been married 23 years, and wasn't diagnosed until then due to lack of money and insurance. So obviously, these disorders were left untreated since he turned 18, and was kicked off his mother's insurance.
Once we finally were on insurance, because we are low income, the competition for resources in a big city ( we live in Seattle), getting the care he needs has been difficult. The help has been limited and the places that we went for professional help are stretched thinly.We even were able to apply and get him on ssi, but due to technicalities, he was qualified as disabled, but not any financial assistance.
Also, he had a therapist who either through a big workload, or inexperience, or other reasons, drop the ball on him. This was clearly evident after the last suicide attempt that he had back in October of 2015. This was the last time he ever saw his therapist. He felt like he was failed by the system back in high school and now again recently. Too many "nurse Ratchets" and the cold shuffling of patients was what he feels. The idea of going to see one, is a trigger now. His last therapist wanted him to go to a place here in Seattle, Harborview, but that was a reminder of a traumatic experience he had in a hospital he attended while in high school. So he stopped seeing her.
Add to the stress, Seattle is going through a major gentrification overhaul, which means we're getting priced out of here and need to relocate. Being here, in a city of 4+ million people, has made things worse. In the almost seven years we've lived here, he has had multiple mental and emotional meltdowns, the PTSD and panic attacks are escalating, and has had at least two suicide attempts. He hasn't had any of these symptoms to this extreme until we moved here to Seattle.
In the 20+ years we've been been married, we've tried just about everything. Her been researching on YouTube, studying Buddhist meditation, weaned himself off of medication that was negatively affecting him, changing his diet, trying to get out for walks. Although the neighborhood we're in is getting so congested, getting out for walks are starting to have a negative impact on him.
I'm at a loss, he's having suicidal ideation and losing the will to live, especially after battling this for so many years and feeling as though he has nothing to show for it. I can't call for help because he has PTSD with therapists, officers, and the system in general. He's had such bad experiences with the system that is supposed to help, that he can't get the help. Add to the fact we're in a city that is too big for us.