I have no idea how to describe this problem, But it's causing me a little annoyance.
I can't wait at all. I'm talking about even a second (litteraly). I always have to keep my brain processing at 100%.
During movies I get so impatience I feel like my chest is getting tight. it's hard to describe it but I feel like they're spiderwebs all over me and I can't get out.
I usually watch the In 2x speed until something happens. During video games I usually hold shift and run trough them and waste the whole money I spent on them without enjoying them. (and fall out of jumping puzzles because I'm too impatience to wait for the levelers to move and end up waiting 5x the amount I would have if I waited)
I mentioned movies and video games because they're the most obvious ones.
I can't literally stand not doing anything for a second. my brain has to be at 100% all the time. I can't stand sitting anywhere. when I'm on the train my brain starts thinking about so much and I feel just burning and weird. like my body is burning and it's explainable. I sometimes get the feeling when I'm trying to sleep at night,
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I hate myself 
It's a curse to be transgender
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