I was supposed to find out a week ago whether or not I'd be allowed to live in the dorms again this semester. This is a HUGE thing for me, I can't fathom the idea of living at home and trying to commute and somehow avoiding being isolated from everyone, or falling back in things because getting to campus to take care of them is so difficult while living at home. I was doing so well, starting to pull myself together, but not knowing is too much for me, and I'm so fallen apart. I've emailed again asking if she's decided but she still hasn't given me an answer... she knows how important it is to me... I keep thinking the only thing this could mean is she doesn't think I should return.
And that means death. I won't take such crap anymore, I've fought long enough and I won't keep going if this is what I'll have to deal with.
Why can't she just tell me already?!?!?!?!?