i am the same way, i get it. its the only person i have in real life right now i can talk to i know wont start laughing at me or mocking me etc... so i do like going and talking

i do write often too. sometimes i write things i want to talk to him about and once in a while ill email him because i know he will reply and he will have it before i arrive... other times i try to get brave and read it out loud there. i also journal

right now its the toughest time I've had so far, in my life, dealing with a pending death, and its horribly hard on me, so i feel i want to go back, luckily he is giving me 2x this week. i gotta only wait until tuesday but who knows maybe when tuesday comes ill be not in the mood lol

its weird for sure

i am glad you were able to make a lot of progress with talking about your past