today is my birthday...the worst one i've had in a couple years. i cut the %#@&#! out of my wrists. i couldnt stop myself. im very very upset...who the hell wouldnt cut themselves if they got the %#@&#! beaten out of them just because they reminded their drunk father it was their birthday. he doenst want to remember the day i was born...since i was a mistake. help seems so far away right now.