What do people do when they are on Medicaid, chronically depressed and in a downward spiral? No, your 25 yo recent MSW grad is not going to be helpful for me and I am quite sure that the end of October to see a med shrink is asking a bit much - given the fact that I am a walking nervous breakdown. Call a hotline - no, I am NOT suicidal; though I think life is wasted on me I do have responsibilities so NO it is not an option. So, get back in line with our newest recent grad who will show off her new counseling skills without a ****ing clue about life - yours, hers, anyones. Meanwhile, I am seriously dying inside. My blood pressure is through the roof, I hyperventilate a zillion times a day, and generally every ****ing soul-destroying situation you can think of is my every day. But I am invisible because i will not lie and say I am suicidal.