Okay, so ik being suicidal is not normal, but from the relative standpoint of depression, how normal is it to be non-emotionally suicidal. I often mentally respond to every situation that doesn't go perfectly with me imagining killing myself. Sometimes I'll just be sitting down doing nothing particularly exciting, frustrating, or stressful and will just casually think about ending my life. Is this a common experience, or is this oddly different?