My mood swings have been really severe. Since I have not been feeling well, I have no filter when it comes to things that normally I'd be able to brush off. I was a loose cannon around family. I apologized, but they don't believe me, but I understand they are still probably mad. Unrelated to surgery, my shoulder is hurting so bad and part of my back that I'm using heating pads and taking medication. I know I am accountable for my mistakes, it's just hard not being able to take back my actions. Plus, I wish my moods would even out more compared to how they've been.