I'm sorry you're having a tough time. You're doing everything you can treatment wise. I'm sorry it's not enough to relieve the distress you're feeling. I don't have any advice beyond what you're already doing but don't give up. New medications are coming out all the time. One might be the ticket for you. I totally understand feeling like your life is a mistake because of the circumstances of my birth and adoption. It's good you live for your daughter. I live for mine as well. I hope something comes along soon that gives you relief. Thinking of you.