Dear Dr. S,

You are still so far away from me. I think we are broken. Do you want it back? And when I say want, I mean it in a clinical way, does it need to be back for things to progress? I'm not sure I want it back.

There has been an element for the break that has been nice and that is the less obsessive thoughts about you, longing for you, wanting you, stressing about emailing you. The bad has been not feeling loved by you, not wanting to be open to you, ambivalent about seeing you/continuing, feeling like I am just a job. I don't like feeling like I am just a job.

Holding on until Monday,
-Me