Divorce is nearly as bad as death--you are closing a significant chapter in your life. Hopefully, the new chapter will be better but it will be different. Even if your marriage was not great, it still must be terrifying to be single and hurt to be rejected. I think when we marry, the interactions with our partner change us--they influence the course of our lives. The longer you were married, the longer it will take to recover. I am sorry it did not turn out the way you had hoped....