I feel very inadequate as a person. I feel ashamed of my life because I have no social life, friends, and activities, and because I don't have a good job or any job right now. I feel I don't deserve the good things. I know this negativity doesn't help, but it is very strong, and I always think this way. I cannot convince myself that I worth something for someone somewhere, even to my own family. My father keeps criticizing me. My mother doesn't care but about herself. My siblings ignore me and don't talk to me as they should (they treat me as a stranger; no one calls me, and if I talk to them, I feel the coldness in their interactions as if they want to say negative stuff about me but they cannot). I am left alone in this world. I just hope the end is very close to take my rest from this misery called life.