Past just let go....
putting my life on slow.
Want to disappear
away from pain, fear.
Away from anxiety
let me be free....
memories of abuse
just let me loose.
Cant live this way
with demons who play.
Cant trust still....
such a bitter pill.
On my own in my head
only safe place, my bed....
covers pulled around my ears
pillow catching so many tears.
All cried out, numb
back to sucking my thumb
like a child, broken
All those words that were spoken.....
Confidence taken away
ability to trust and play...
dont wanna be here any more
just want to curl and die on the floor...
peace at last, eternity
right now, that's all I can see.

J