Thanks everyone. Mr. Stranger, I know how you feel about the feelings of inadequacy, and then acting as if you are, or perceiving things that way, as if you really are inadequate. I have experienced this myself.

Today I am ok. I am still struggling with showing up. It's my never-ending saga. But maybe it won't be like that forever. I hope it won't be. I did go to meditation group today. It was something I *wanted* to do though. (And it kind of sucked today. I was thinking about posting about it in a separate thread. I'll see if I feel like taking about it later).

But anyway, I talked to my therapist last week about my difficulty showing up. We are going to continue to work on this.

One thing that I am coming to realize, is that two things help: being persistent in working on my struggles, and having patience. It doesn't happen overnight. Also not being hard on myself.

Tomorrow, I have to go to a testing preparation class. It's not something I MUST do tomorrow. But it's a good idea to, if I want to get into this vocational training program I've been thinking about for a while. I don't want to go to it, but I'm going to go.