Thank you so much for your response...

Like you, I wouldn't have had to tell my therapist about the DID diagnosis. Over time, she would have come to that conclusion on her own. My fear isn't as much sharing it with her because that happens regardless of what I want, but really the fact that I'm scared to trust her with it. I guess those two things are so similar that they're different, at least in my mind.

I dissociate whenever I am in a stressful, triggering situation. Sometimes it is normal, every day stress. Then, from what I understand, the parts that come out are similar to me and can function as me in the workplace or at home. During triggering events, say, a loud noise, another part will appear. And, in conversations where I'm upset or scared, yet another part. So on and so forth. My therapist has likely met multiple parts, but the one that is most present with her is a child part. And, the part that drew my T the picture and the one who would most benefit from my bringing the stuffed animal to her office.

Maybe this isn't so much about my therapist at all. I think the trust is more about myself and my unwillingness to truly accept my DID diagnosis or my other parts. I want to hold back because of fear, guilt, shame, discomfort, and a million other feelings. But, my therapist and team want me to let them help. They're open to my doing anything that could be beneficial and my therapist, especially, supports me in every way. The only one uncomfortable with my bringing those 2 items in is me. So, that being said, how do I trust myself?