i fight with myself, a great deal ...

i cant understand why i feel like it wasnt trauma, then it was, then it wasnt
why i defend it, then get angry, then depressed, i cant understand

i feel so out of place...
this life... what happened to it?

it doesnt feel like its mine... i dont belong here at all...

i just want to escape... where i belong...

where things will feel normal

dont want to be confused any more...