I started reading the posts in here and started crying.

The way certain things trigger me.

The walls I have.

The failed relationships and the way they failed every time.

My OCD.

Panic attacks.

Paranoia.

Could it all stem from PSTD due to trauma from neglect and abuse as a child?

Even writing this I tear up, somewhat relieved I know yet scared at the fact, knowing that the abuse from my childhood is causing issues today but.

I have severe abandonment issues. And the more I dig into my past and learn why, I am getting quite needy when it comes to physical touch and closeness. Almost clingy.

I'm not liking it. When people don't respond to me it drives me insane and I start over thinking "what did I do wrong?" "What happened". "What do I need to do to fix this?"

Help me?