Have been doing this course by Tony Robbins for 12 (or 13?) days. Haven't binged and learned how to do a lot of tricks with my mind to really be there for myself when I feel like going to unhealthy patterns. Quite a lot of work, but So worth it! The course is called "The Body You Deserve" but I renamed it "The Life You Deserve" because body image is not exactly what I want to address. I am still quite petite (although yeah, I would love to be skinnier, ideally) but what scared me is not my belly - I'm Ok with my belly, I'm a belly dancer after all! - but being out of control when it comes with food. This state when your mind goes blank, you are on autopilot, as if watching yourself from above.. eating and eating more.. chills and fear come to me even now when I recall this state. It sucks.
But being able to really scratch this old pattern.. and to find out that even if you still have this pattern - there is nothing wrong with you, you just gotta keep scratching it and replace with a new pattern then... Is so ****ing liberating! It's a journey. If you are reading this and are coping with binge eating - know you can do it, you CAN reshape your mind and how you respond to things. It takes a while and requires some commitment but it is possible and you are SO, So Worth it <3

I wish luck to myself and whoever is reading it.