I ran into him almost a month ago. right after thanksgiving. He tried talking to me. I wanted to hurt him. after so many years of torture he put me through and now he wants to know how i feel. After losing a job and my bills cant be met. After all the times I took care of our mother. who thought he walked on water. and she thought i was LYING about what he did to me. Why would a 9 year old girl tell her mom that he held her down and tried to make her do things that arent right, to lie about it. Where would she have learned that? He used to say. "they will think you are nuts and lock you up" this is how a brother loves a sister. No it isnt. He wouldnt stop. after that he invited a friend in on the action. The fear in my eyes when my parents would leave and go out is something I can never explain. I got beat for LYING. lying about what he did. he KNOWS what he did. making me touch him. fighting back tears and fighting the fear inside, I did it. just to be able to have him leave me alone. I was a kicking post, a toy. NOT a sister.

Thanks for listening.