Yes, I do know that this is your battle as well. Sorry. It just seemed like you were in my head at the time I wrote this.

At times Inky, I want to die and at other times I don't.

But how can I get by the hating part. Thinking about it I could list a thousand reasons why. But it hurts too much to admit to anyone. Shame, guilt, etc--all the junky stuff. I have a hard time looking or should I say facing myself in the mirror. Thats what I do know.

Justy