That's kind of where i am at. But I'm sick of all the wasted money and time. I fully aware of what's up and why. And really don't wanna dig into the dark side of the childhood stuff but fear it going to be a necessity. I got so tired of my family not understanding the word no there was a blow up over my grandmothers funeral and I was so uncomfortable being around family I didn't go. I refuse to be neglected by them anymore.