i was a micro preemie (born at 24 weeks) and was in the hospital for the first four months and also had heart surgery. they tried to get my parents to let me go and said that i would have severe problems if i did live. i was in and out the hospital for the first year of life because of other health issues including one life-threatening infection. they don't know how i survived all that i did with as little issues as i did.

my mom thinks that all of my issues are related to that, but i know that it was not the whole reason. i do believe, however, that it was probably the start of my trauma and ability to dissociate, but it was not what created the DID; all the other stuff in childhood added to it and helped it become what it did. there is no one cause, but that definitely was the beginning.

i wasn't able to be held for the first few months and had to endure daily medical procedures whether they were non invasive or not and all the nurses and doctors daily that were involved in my care too, so i didn't really have a lot of time to just rest and be left alone.

one sibling was born early as well but didn't have medical interventions to the degree i did and just had to eat and grow basically.