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Jun 12, 2017, 12:40 AM
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Member Since: Jun 2017
Location: us
Posts: 33
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I am so confused on how you can really tell if what you are dealing with is DID or something else. My therapist strongly believes it is true and there are many things that I can't explain (I often feel what I call 'possessed' by someone of different age and current emotional feeling and even wants and desires. Sometimes I feel like I am surprised I remember my own name because I forget things so easily and after spending a lot of time with another person and having interactions with others that I don't seem to recognize, I find I am FREQUENTLY asking who that person was and the other person has no problem remembering where we had both seen them together and interacted and I have no memory of it. I do have large gaps of memory in the past and of a lot of things that I am 'reminded of'(you remember when such and such and.......... um, no I don't)... etc..... but I know many people have varying degrees of memory and confusion for things and as for the 'possesion' feelings,
I often wonder if I am just making that all up. I know there are no people in my head, but sometimes it is almost as if I can hear them crying and even feel like there are fights going on. But then I get almost certain this has to be something major and the next moment I am sure I am just making it up for attention or something (however, only like 2 people even know if it's existance and nobody knows how often it has happened but it has happened all my life so it has seemed normal to me and now I wonder if I am just making a big deal out of what other people call 'their inner child and various parts used for different aspects of daily functioning' but for me sometimes these 'parts' feel like they are taking over and I have to work very hard to hide what is happening from anybody around and excuse myself if it feels like I can't hide it. I know if very professional and anxiety provoking situations, I wont remember what went on in conversations a lot of times but can't decide if that is just a stress response or what my therapist has suggested in 'lost time' because another part has stepped in.....
As you can tell, I am so confused that I can't even stick to one belief in my explanation... I just don't get it all and thought maybe hearing other people thoughts and experiences might help
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