I've been fighting for 30 years. I'm ready to quit now. Never before did I get this discouraged. However---- the truth is I am so much better than I was and the fight made me better. It didn't fix everything because the fixing is really your outlook on life and struggle. The fixing isn't the treatment because in my view we are all doomed to be a little or a lot depressed from time to time. It's part of being human because **** happens to everyone eventually. Anyway I'm trying to focus more on finding meaning in life that isn't related to this depression ******** because I totally agree that we don't all get cured. Just watch any reality tv show (omg I watch too many) and you'll see how many life stories end up with tragedy and failure. Don't wait for treatment to work. Just find a way to live meaningfully in spite of it. I struggle with this so I'm not saying oh I did it so you can too. I'm just saying I'm starting to think that's the only solution. After a ****ton of therapy I'm now broke and jobless and alone. So I have to find a way out.