Dear Dr. S, if you are getting advice from your supervisor that you should establish more structure based on what has happened, that would be a mistake. It would leave me feeling even less wanted than I already do. Right now I feel it is just the parts, if you were to tell me no more journal, I would feel that I was not wanted, not just the parts - all of me. Do you see, do you understand how fragile we are right now?

I still feel like you left me and you don't get it. You don't get that I did experience it like my history and not a new experience.

-me