I'm not sure if I'm posting this in the right place...sorry......

Last August, while in hospital, I saw another patient kill himself. Today would have been his 20th Birthday.

I thought I'd pretty much moved on, but today has brought up so many issues and feelings.

I'm feeling the guilt for not stopping him all over again.

My initial reaction to his death was anger. I was soo angry that it was him that died, and not me..... I still feel that way.

I dunno, I'm just questioning so many things right now, and I'm not feeling to safe

sorry...........