Some days after they've done this stuff its harder to go on as if nothing happened...Like it hits me harder then on other days... Such days I just want to curl up in a corner and close my eyes and die.. Today's def one of those days. I dont understand it though... After all of these years.. When do you finally get used to it.. I handled it much better before.. last summer.. before they threw my dad in jail and everything changed.. for the worse.. I guess maybe i'm just missing my brother a lot at such times.

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