I'm sorry for my delayed response.
You've said something here that I really relate to -- not understanding why more people don't feel this way. I do understand why many people feel the opposite of me -- I would certainly never try to convince anyone otherwise. But, I do also wonder where are the others who feel as I do...

I, of course, will also continue on with life. And trying to find pleasure in it. It's just... yeah.
I don't want to be.