Hello bloom: I'm sorry you are struggling. I have some small idea of what you're experiencing in that I'm an older person. And once you get to be... oh... say 50 or older you're just expendable. (I'm older... but 50 is about when I first became actively involved with the mental health system in my area. And it was never really any different.)

I gave up seeking any kind of mental health treatment for the most part quite a few years ago now. I do still have a psychiatrist. I only see him a couple of times a year now just to keep my foot in the door, so to speak. He's been helpful to me on a couple of occasions in the past. I'm no longer on any kind of med's nor do I see a therapist. My "therapy" consists of doing yoga, meditation, & walking our dog, (plus being here on PC.)

I'm sorry I don't have any other suggestions for you. All I can do is to sympathize & say I know how difficult it can be to find appropriate treatment. Hopefully being here on PC can be of some comfort & support to you. It has been for me.