I'm sorry you're having a hard time figuring all of this out right now. And, that a facility you did intake with was invalidating to your experience...

I've pretty much run the gamut in terms of treatment for my ED. I have done IOP, PHP, residential, and inpatient treatment. I'm currently in need of a higher level of care, but not able to access such treatment. I am seeing 2 therapists and a dietitian as an outpatient, however. I've had both positive and negative experiences, but, in spite of the negative, I do feel it has always been beneficial in some way, shape, or form. Making the decision to seek therapy or treatment is difficult, but it is so important to do so.

What level of care are you seeking? Is there something, in particular, you need help with in terms of the ED? What kind of treatment is necessary at this point in time? What has worked for you in the past or, if you've never been in treatment, what do you think you need at this time? While I'm no expert, I have been around the block a few times and would be happy to talk to you further or help, if possible. I'm in the USA as well and am familiar with many programs and treatment modalities. Please feel free to PM me or reach out.

Keep pushing. Don't let one experience with one facility derail your efforts. Even though it's scary, you can do this. I believe in you!