Well, I don't even have depression. I have been forced into therapy, and I'm ****ed up because my parents called cps on me so I don't know what the **** happened, like I'm probably abusing my parents, or they are masters of manipulation, or they were genuinely worried, but they were so harsh with me and I felt/feel like a prisoner/visitor in their home?

I have never been diagnosed. Diagnoses are not the most exact science, I know, but I'm just so messed up about this. I can diagnose myself. But it's like I'm therapy resistant. I don't want the jail of a diagnosis, but ffs, what's wrong with me?

so I'm nothing, I'm just brooding and haven't grown out of my teenage angst. Maybe I haven't diagnosed myself because then all those institutions that reported me would be right. I'm too stubborn.