Glad to read you are sticking it out.

Often there are student tutors available to help. Professors always want to be asked if there are struggles at the beginning-I'd bring it up to my instructor, tell him/her you are concerned since everything is new to you, that you are on an unlevel playing field. There also may be accommodations if you have a disability.

I dropped out of high school and didn't start college until over a decade later. I didn't have the background others had, but once I figured it all out, my 'street smarts' and work experience helped me excel well beyond those who had the prep from high school.

Perhaps you could try to push your emotions aside while you focus on getting through it, finishing? Burn through it all. Try not to let everything get you down and focus on your goal to achieve stability.