You are embarrassed to ask for help. Did you know many people are? Embarrassed or not, please do it. You can get through this--take one step at a time.

I think it's important to ask for help. If you fall out but didn't ask for help, the instructor may think you are just blowing it off. But if you ask for help and convey that you are struggling, they might appreciate how hard you are trying.

Many people struggle the first and last years. Transitions are tough. Hang in there.