THanks all. I will say that there is NO trust in self at all as I can't figure anything out or make sense of anything. I think or feel one way at one moment and then doubt myself or think completely differently the next. And to add to it, I am constantly trying to decide if I am just making the entire thing up and I am just making a big deal out of inner differences that everybody has and then I don't think so..... I just don't know anything