I've experienced that my whole life. I don't trust people easily, am hyper-vigilant, don't like it when people walk up behind me or get too close to me. Meetings are stressful for me. I'm great at what I do, I just prefer to be left alone.
I have to admit, that after all of these years, I prefer to be left alone at work. I plug in and totally ignore the drama that is going on around me. Unfortunately, by boss is an ***** and I can't totally ignore him so our meetings are very stressful for me. On the plus side, he shows up late and takes long lunches so sometimes I can get through a whole day without having to talk to him.
I truly am the "odd person out". I don't fit into the group as a whole, but do have some pretty good working relationships in one-on-one conversations. Add more than one person to a discussion and I'm immediately uncomfortable.
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"Do you know what’s really scary? You want to forget something. Totally wipe it off your mind. But you never can. It can’t go away, you see. And… and it follows you around like a ghost."
~ A Tale of Two Sisters (Janghwa, Hongryeon) (2003)
"I feel like an outsider, and I always will feel like one. I’ve always felt that I wasn’t a member of any particular group."
~ Anne Rice
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