You didn't need to laugh so hard T!!! Though the fact that I can see the funny side of that is a sign of my development I think. A good thing.

So that's your Son, well, one of them anyway. I wanted to go up to him and tell him how lucky he is. I hope he knows it. How I wish I could greet you like he did. "Hi Mum". Maybe one day I will do it anyway, because you have been more of a Mum to me, emotionally, than my Mum ever could have been, I think. Keep that stone safe and hidden for now, because my knowing that you have it is enough for now.

I am going to get some bubbles and have them for those moments. Not my circus, not my monkeys. My monkeys fly.

Something else I need to give back to someone else is the stuff that happened at school. I think I would like to write them a letter. I know that it won't make it not have happened, but maybe having my voice heard is what I need. The big question is whether I put my address on it or not. Whether I want a reply or not. If I brought it then you could read it aloud for me and then maybe you could post it for me. Something about that feels right. Someone showing up for me. Helping me to get my voice heard. Maybe. I will sit on that and see.

Good game today, I would like to play it again on Friday.