I understand some of your feelings because I have/do experience them myself. In therapy also, but starting to help. There's a lot at play in here. I will start off by saying I'm no expert, but considering you asked for help and find it expensive to go to a therapist, I choose to answer from my many experiences. These symptoms are probably from a multiple of things. First, it sounds like you are suffering from depression to some degree. It may not "feel" like depression, but that doesn't mean it's not. Look up some blogs on it on NAMI etc. to see what I mean. Staying in bed for a year and not feeling motivation is a serious thing. Second, your not be able to make or keep friends smacks of Borderline Personality Disorder. Again, check it out on NAMI or here. Do the BPD quiz and see what it says. Remember, just because it says or doesn't say doesn't mean that it's accurate. Your new roomies have feelings and problems just like you. They may be the types that take a long time (if ever) to get to be friends. They may choose not to be due to having enough relationships to content with. Try to see first how they could be perceiving you from THEIR eyes instead of hating on yourself. Then ask if there are things you might be doing that could be perceived as pushy, intrusive or rude. I do this. I pour my life and soul out to strangers and don't know why they reject me. I'm BPD. Get a book on Dialectical Behavior Therapy and work hard daily at doing the exercises in it. It's one of a few that actually can heal BPD, if you have it. These things won't happen overnight. You didn't get here in a week. It will take time. And be kind to yourself by doing 2 things (1) start doing positive, uplifting self talk....I'm worthy of love...I say interesting things....I am good enough. (2) If you need to talk and wish to give your roommates some space for now, try calling the "warm" lines that are available. These aren't suicide prevention, but more chatting when you are upset, lonely, med trouble etc. It's free and helpful. Google it. There could be very serious issues here, and you may have to work hard to discover them. Remember that you're worth it. The only you that you have is the top priority. Hugs. Sorry you're feeling this way.