Justy!

Wow! I am no expert on ED or any other order or disorder. I don't even know myself yet.

All I can share with you is this: As a child I grew up poor. Sometimes after school I would have a piece bread for lunch, and nothing else, no butter, no jam. I remember once sprinkling sugar on my bread and wetting it under the tap, it tasted like pudding! My mom always made sure that we had at least 1 decent meal every day (usually dinner time) and on Sundays the family sat down for a big lunch.

Now as an adult I get terribly distressed when I have to go hungry for whatever reason. My mood changes visibly and I become intolerant of things and people. Whenever we go somewhere for a trip even if it is only a few hours, I would take a snack. My snack box has become a bit of a family joke by now. Somewhere deep down I have this fear of dying of hunger and strangely I have never actually gone hungry.

Perhaps this is not what you wanted to hear but I wanted to share with you and this was all I could think of. I hope you can overcome these obstacles, life is difficult but as soon as we accept that it is difficult then we can move on.

You are in my thoughts.