I know the feeling your having...Im sure there are many who feel as you and I have felt. What I try to do when this happens is to Think of the others "around me" who may need these external trimming to brighten their own struggles. This way the pressure is "off me". I know this can be tricky, but I have found it helps me. I also say to myself...this is a seasonal thing and will soon pass like most seasons. I am also a believer in "He who made this season (Jesus)". I rejoice in my heart His presence and just allow His presence reign. For someone who has periodical depression, and Christmas Season blues; I can't allow my moments on sadness dominate the joy that He came to give me. Its because of His Light I too can shine. If you can think more of His Presence in your heart and you'll feel better about what you see out side in the commercial world. I shall pray for for you and all who struggle with the commercalism of Christmas.