J,
Yesterday was hard, but I feel a lot better knowing that you know some of the things about me that I don't let anyone know and yet are not dumping me as a client and still choosing to sit in a room with me. Maybe on Friday I will be brave enough to ask you the questions I wasn't ready to ask yesterday. I really needed that session. I feel a lot more stable - a lot more like I can support S (ex-T) as a friend right now knowing that I'm no longer losing the "only person" who knew those things I have now told you.
Thank you for being a really good and professional therapist with strong boundaries that you are confident you can hold. I didn't even realize how much I wanted and depended on those boundaries until now. They make me feel safe. It is really nice to be seeing a therapist who I don't have to worry about supporting -- It was really good to hear that my time with you is going to be 100% about me.
We still don't "know eachother" and our styles perfectly, but that's ok. I have a lot more confidence in this working now.
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