Man that's hard. But look at it this way, if we were always completely in control of our reactions, we probably wouldn't be in therapy.

What I suggest, and this would be hard but it would take care of it, is to call your T and leave another message apologizing for the outburst and asking if you can get your appointment back. I'm sure you'll be able to and then, should the feelings of hurt and rejection continue, you can talk about that in your session.

All of this is, of course, an indication of what's going on with you and what you should work on in therapy anyway.

So that's my two cents. My heart goes out to you. Nothing worse than having to deal with the aftermath of a freak out. I know that one personally.

Cyran0