I'm leaving on Tuesday to move across county for a job and to be closer to family.

I've been flipping between great productivity and anxiety and low mood so intense that I get paralyzed and can do next to nothing. Great energy and then next to none, or somehow, weirdly, both at the same time. I'm an utter, holy mess.

My car will be taken away to get taken across country in a couple of days and my things packed up and loaded on Monday.

I have a thousand things still to do. I'm scared, so scared I won't get it all done. I'm scared about my moods. I suppose they're normal for what I'm going through, but they're so intense, I'm on the cusp of just not being able to take it.

Yesterday was my last day at work. A lot of 'lasts' lately. I've been getting headaches every day. I've been feeling more and more down, wondering if I'm doing the right thing for me.

I need a lot of support right now, and I have it from a good friend here, but
the family I'm mostly moving for, is at their busiest time of year. I'm afraid I'll get there (I don't know the area) and just be abandoned because no one has time for me, or not much. I'm so so scared on so many levels.