You aren't being mean. Everyone has a right to express themselves, and keeping it in can cause pain especially if you allow it to pile up. Please only stop posting when you feel comfortable not anything else. This post is to help you, not others- if you stop posting before you feel comfortable, you push away any possible help. I don't know if I am helping you in the correct way - but if I am not perhaps by continuing to talk someone else will see this or maybe I will understand the way(s) I am misjudging how to help you and try to correct it. Please allow yourself to receive help. ❤