Okay, so what you didn't initially post is really the crux of the whole problem. You lost your independence. I would feel very bad about that to. You don't need to just "let go." You need to figure out a plan to become self-reliant and not dependent on family for the roof over your head. You need to earn an income you can live off of. Lots of people who try having their own business don't succeed at it. It's painful when that happens. Either you need more time to get your business off the ground, or you need to accept that you must work for someone else.