It is hard. I have lost count of all the books I have read, so know the theory and when I am in a good place I can see it all so clearly (wow I seem to have written the start of a poem ) but when I am in that hole, it is like I am someone else and being in that hole is the only reality.

Right now I am thinking of quitting T. I question whether that is because I should or is it just that I am in that hole somewhere.

So in answer to your question, I don't know how to pull myself out as I am not always sure if I am in the hole or not.