<font color="red">Welcome,
If you have not dealt with this issue of the rape that happened 4 yrs ago then that needs to be acknowledged and dealt with.
No one can deal with this kind of thing on their own, no matter what they say. It's a scary thing to go through, anything like that is scary. I'd suggest going in to talk to someone professional to help you learn to deal with this and learn to heal and cope.

I was plauged with PTSD for 8 long years and just recently have been free from it. I've deal with abuse when I was 16 who also threatened rape, and I was raped once by him (Even though at the time I didn't realize that's what it was) he was abusive in everyway.

I was also dealing with numerous sexual assaults, sexual harrassment and another rape threat.

If I didn't have my psychatrist to help me deal with this I think i'd be lost.

Now i'm confident, I can live a life I want and not be plauged with memories, flashbacks, shame guilt, body memories, dreams etc etc.... each day gets better.

You will get there too. Hang in there. </font>