I am so angry at censorship and Autocratic behavior and the belligerence of a-holes. I have been taking anti-depressive medication (started out with Prozac and Cymbalta) and ADD-medication (Strattera and Concerta) and am now taking Paxil, Buspar, and Strattera.
I am in psychotherapy and have been since I was 8. I do not feel any of this helps, because you cant get rid of Rednecks, Anti-Semites, and Apologists (esp. Jewish Apologists) and drug users, abusers, wife beaters, Adulterers, etc.

I feel no one cares about me, except a >>few<< brave and >>kind<< souls, when I need to talk, unless I pay them first or unless I start cussing and go into a temper-tantrum. Sometimes I want to respond with a religious, political or antisocial epithet. Only by the grace of a beneficent G-d do I manage to restrain myself.

Some times it is an ignorant remark or driver or human rudeness that sets me off.

The usual unkind remark is you are weird, an idiot, stupid, derelict. My response is well at least I don't have a gun, knife, don't do illegal drugs, don't drink except on Jewish Holidays and the Sabbath, don't smoke, am not homosexual, am not a killer,am not a pimp or solicitor of prostitution, don't tattoo my G-d given body, am not a pedophile, etc. Why can't people reason with that and try to talk to me like a person.

Is violence and anger the only social responses this world responds to? It is easy to hurl anger at an Omaha mall-like incident than it is to befriend someone who needs kindness, or to act like a bully and push someone or hurt someone who needs help, rebuke respectful language, like Sir or Ma'am, etc.

I hate living in Frederick, MD, where although the Rabbi of the non-denominational synagogue is kind, where Jewish life is 'nil or antipathetic towards Orthodoxy.

Waiting for a kind, but helpful reply -- not censorship or rebuke or Anti-Semitic remark from those who worship according to the Gospel of Hate, including my fellow Jews.

Moishe in Amber Meadows.