in all the old western movies, it was the guy who lost his temper and couldnt shoot straight that lost the shootout..

there is a lot of frustration in your words and this is such a better way to express than some of my old habits...

you are looking for connections... in my depression there is a veneer over the world i see... a layer of disconnection... whether it is the depression or myself which lies... i believe the idea of disconnection is a lie...

has your community maxxed out on space rent? start a group of your own? i dont know about these things well, but reaching out is a good start... i hope someone will have better ideas...