Hi there. I read your posts!! It's spooky to read someone's words that look like they came out of my own head. My mind races around on its own, thoughts going here and there without my consent!! I don't understand why sometimes I'm OK about not drinking, and at others I can smell that darn martini - Bombay Sapphire Gin and Noilly Pratt Vermouth, with a humungous olive that practically counts as salad, speared and sitting in a frosted glass. It's the only drink I actually salivate at the thought of. I don't think I have dreamed about it. My lucid dreams are all over the place and usually involve feeling highly embarassed or trapped in an unpleasant situation.

I have had a lot of trouble falling asleep lately, but feel bone tired and not quite awake when I'm supposed to be. How much of this is depression and anxiety versus being a good old drunk, I have no idea. What I'm learning, however, is that by trying to do other things with the time I'd "normally" - HA! - spend drinking, it really does help reduce the cravings. Maybe that's why I'm so tired....

Anyway, I'm here. I read. I relate. I feel these things, too.

partlycloudy