That's the reason I do it too.........to feel like there is something alive within me.......if I bleed, something MUST be living. You are not a leper or crazy or anything else. Just trying to cope with life's garbage the best way you can.

When I cut, my T simply asks why? what was I feeling at the time? Like I tell him, they are superficial cuts, to relieve pressure and let me cope.

Talk to me if you want, in a PM or otherwise. You're not alone - everyone here cares about you a lot. Please hang in there.

Mary Alice